by Helena » Fri May 18, 2018 12:25 pm
Wow - I just read this all today and was kind of expecting it to be light hearted in the beginning - Im actually moved to tears now.
Hobbit I totally understand what you mean in your post - my brother passed away very recently - he was very ill and the last few weeks were horrendous, but among all that were beautiful moments when we talked about when we were small and he told me he loved me. That said, I had the guilt like you talk about, as I wanted with all my being to hear that it was over - because he was suffering so much - then feeling guilt because I thought that.
Dean - what you said about your mum was very poingnant and I had never thought of it before.
As you get older you lose more people, it doesn't get any easier, but I have to say I just cannot imagine what it would be like to lose a child - the natural way of things is to lose your parents, grieve for them, then as you get older perhaps your siblings, but its not supposed to happen that its your child. xx
Just want to say thank you to everyone for the lovely honest posts!
Wow - I just read this all today and was kind of expecting it to be light hearted in the beginning - Im actually moved to tears now.
Hobbit I totally understand what you mean in your post - my brother passed away very recently - he was very ill and the last few weeks were horrendous, but among all that were beautiful moments when we talked about when we were small and he told me he loved me. That said, I had the guilt like you talk about, as I wanted with all my being to hear that it was over - because he was suffering so much - then feeling guilt because I thought that.
Dean - what you said about your mum was very poingnant and I had never thought of it before.
As you get older you lose more people, it doesn't get any easier, but I have to say I just cannot imagine what it would be like to lose a child - the natural way of things is to lose your parents, grieve for them, then as you get older perhaps your siblings, but its not supposed to happen that its your child. xx
Just want to say thank you to everyone for the lovely honest posts!