by Gigolo » Sat Feb 18, 2012 11:34 pm
She could get her landlord to drive her to the hospital. If it was too trivial for her to bother her landlord at midnight, it was too trivial for an ambulance.
I liked Simone and I didn't think Simone was malicious. Simone nodded to me that I could use her name. I didn't think Simone was malicious like Northern Star. Some people thought Simone had been malicious to me. I agreed, and considered that was when she was angry with me. There was no contradiction between me saying I didn't think Simone was malicious and that she had been malicious to me. She was wrong to be angry with me, but it was hot blooded malice from her. I didn't think Simone was generally malicious and thought she was a warm person. Northern Star was cold blooded malice. Northern Star was January.
If Simone had killed the cyclist on Forest Road, she would not have done it deliberately. She was unlikely to have been drinking at 6am on Tuesday morning, it would have been her eyesight.
Drink driving was stupid of her. Her eyesight was not her fault but I thought she should not be driving if she cannot see properly. I was not speaking of her driving in anger, her driving was of genuine concern. I was worried she would kill someone. With regard to her eyesight, I thought there was something wrong with her driving test instructor.
I thought Simone drink drove as a psychological cover due to having killed the cyclist, to show herself she was not to blame as she could drive when drunk. She also drove too fast.
I thought Simone should get rid of the car. Jesus agreed with me.
I prefered Simone to Northern Star. Simone was a warm person, she was nice. I had never met Northern Star. I was worried that I prefered Simone as Jesus had told me I got on better with Northern Star than with anyone. Jesus had also told me that she got on well with me. Jesus had told me that me and Northern Star were soulmates. Jesus had explained that it was in person I got on very well with Northern Star. I didn't expect to ever meet her. There was no anticipation. Jesus told me that as I hadn't met Northern Star it was OK to prefer Simone.
I enjoyed Simone's company. We had never argued. It was in person we had never argued. What I had done by writing about her on the forum was not selfish. It was the opposite as I enjoyed staying with her. I liked her and thought she had a few psychological problems which I should deal with. I thought the best way to deal with it was to write about her on the forum so she could read about herself. She was nice.
If I stayed with her later on it was £70 a week and she gave me the key.
Northern Star was 31. She was January and was cold and was gone from me.
Northern Star was 32. She was warm.
Simone had read what I had written about her and the hit and run on Forest Road, on Friday night. I was weak as worried when I saw on Friday night Simone was dead to me and had gone from me.
I was worried I actually had killed Simone on Friday night. I was aware Simone was strong and would make it to Saturday. I was pleased Simone was strong. That Simone was strong I liked. I saw Simone on Saturday was cold, she was not very cold, she was warmer than Northern Star when Northern Star was January. Simone was more cool toward me at around November temperature. Although Simone was cold toward me on Saturday I still saw, while she was reading me, she was smiling at me later on Saturday. Jesus showed me she was smiling at me later.