Helena Handbasket wrote:Gosh. I came in here thinking it would be the same arguments and funny quips etc, this forum is therapy for me at the minute, at a particularly shite time, and I'm really sorry to read some of your stories. Charlie like you I'm drinking too much.
Last night I visited my brother, he's got cancer of the bowel and has a tumour in his chest and is lying in hospital waiting to die. Every breath is painful for him and i looked in his eyes and thought, God I hope it comes soon, he's suffering so much. I don't have my mum and dad any more and that was heart breaking, but this is my big brother and i can't get my head round how unfair it is.
So my husband and i got in our car and drove home, had a takeaway and a drink, and all I could think of was him there in that bed and wondered if he is frightened and what's going through his mind.
So I have no fucking clue at the minute what it's all a fucking bout.
I haven't been online since last Sat - so I've only just seen this.
I am so sorry to read about your brother. It's obviously an incredibly difficult time for you and it must be like waiting in limbo for the inevitable and wishing it because of how much pain he's in, but feeling utter sorrow at the same time.
Lean on hubby and friends, don't be afraid to let it out. XX